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Hi, peanut gonna write this entry in English, coz i want to dedicate this to the person that i admire most 
even i just know him in fortnight...maybe..yelah..kalau peanut tulis dalam bm, kan dia tak faham lak..ceh.
.perasaan yang this oppa will coming and reading my blog...ok, make it seriously..i dun know why i had this feeling towards him..seriously, do u know him? yeah..this is park jae beom..a leader, the old one in the male best band group in korea, 2PM..
i know 2pm from my friend, nabila, she keeps going asking me to watch and become a fan of this group..but i'm so busy..(yea...so la,,,)..then,3, 4 days ago i keep on my eyes on them..my first one that attrack me most is the leader..sumtime the call them ledja..yeah..even, there is cutest, nickhun, the handsome one, taecyeon, and the others, i just paying attention to him..
i keep listening all their songs, i keep google-ing..watching in youtube, i had watch all their videos again n again n again..yeah..like their songs...everyday, every time, I'm only listen to their voice...i keep falling in love with them..especially the leader..i started to discover everything about them..their wild bunny and idol army tv show...
but, i discovered that the one i like most, jaebeom had left 2 pm.almost 5 months ago..that make me shocked..it make me feel strange, like missing someone..yeah..i miss him..searching all the article in internet, i keep reading and sometime my tears drop out..and then, i know the reason..but i think it's not fair to him..the Korean netizen asking him to leave 2 pm..killing himself..out of Korea and so many ridiculous things they asked from jaebeom...the only one reason is because his comment on the social web, myspace that stated that he does't like korea, 5 years ago..i think the person who make up this story is so jealously to jaebeom..right?
peanut sendiri tak tahu kenapa peanut ade perasan sedih ni..susah peanut nak minat kat artis ni macam peanut minat kat jaebeom..mungkin sebab his sincere feeling? dan sebab dia di persalahkan dengan menda yang dah lepas...humans are not perfect men, so stop searching for other's fault...keep improving ur self first...hem..i so sad right now
jeabeom,
even i know, that is impossible that u are reading my blog, but i still writing this entry..the only main reason i write this because i want u back to 2 pm..like others hottest..every time i watch 2 pm perform again and again song without u, i keep feeling sad..because i can see the big hole there without u..like others, i just want see u back to 2 pm..there is no such joy to see them without u...if i'm had this feeling, i know you got triple feeling of sadness right? but, if u decide not to come back, please...please bring ur smile back to ur life..i can't stand to see u hurting so much...i just wish that 2 pm will seeing their hottest in Malaysia..with you...
...p/s:i/m not good in english,,so many grammar n vocabulary errors..i use broken english..i just improving..keep trying...
my heart was beat ...listen to my heart beat for u, listen to my heart wait for u...